I feel it is now or never!!
I feel if it doesn’t work now, then I might just be left standing here,
I was born to fight for everything I want, but not so sure of losing myself in the process,
Perhaps I could become a different person after this fight, Perhaps I might find myself.
I hate having to deal with thoughts of not being good enough,
I hate these moments when I struggle to convince myself I am more than enough for me,
Sometimes all I want is to let loose and fall,
But I am quick to remind myself, Broken bones don’t heal so quickly,
I hate having these thoughts at all.
Sometimes the teary eyes speak words the mouth won’t say,
Sometimes the dark nights above are the safest places to be,
Sometimes I pray the mornings should never come,
For I always ask, how can I stay one more day uncompleted,
How could it be, my strength made me weak?
How could I have known being so strong was my only mistake?
Why does it feel so wrong to chase for safety?
Only to stand alone when I look around.